this xanga = over.

www.xanga.com/ragdoll_whoreX

that xanga = newborn.

check it.

sg.

the party was awesome. a few quotes:

micheal: *drunk* AAH POOOLICE!
jojo: *drunk also* OH SHHHI.. *runs away; trips over self; falls on ground* hey mikey boy.. they can't see me can they!!?
micheal: *sits on jojo's back* NOW THEY CAN'T!
[FYI: the police weren't even coming]

chris: hey jojo.. plug in that light up there..
jojo: *still drunk* *sings:* plug it in, plug it in *plugs in light* oooh shhiii... micheal! micheal! i'm dead, man! i've seen the light.. i'm deeead!

micheal: *still drunk* hey kelly.. hahhaha.. he smokes DOOOOPE.

boy: blake.. c'mon, we gotta get back to your party.
blake: *drunk* YOU THREW ME A PARTY!!?
boy: you've been there all night.. we only came to say hey to everyone here real quick..
blake: you threw me a party!!? *turns to us* you guys.. he threw me a party! *turns back to friend* oh, you shouldn't have.  i could just KISS you!
boy: NOO! you've had tooo much to drink if you think i'm gonna let you kiss me!

NEWS FLASH:  a toyota can definitely outrun a dodge.  oh yes.

happy birthday, christopher.

then, today.. we went to the mall with aubrey and ryan.  i didn't buy anything, but i found stuff i want to go back and get.

so we were on the way back to kandace's, and my mom calls.  "sara, you've got 10 minutes to come tell your favorite puppy goodbye."  so aubrey and them brought me to my house. 

i cried when the people left.  they had to take my favorite puppy.  i'm gonna miss my teddy bear.  </3

stupid little 8th grader talking crap about me.  i don't like jamie anymore, thank you very much.  you can have him.  take him, please.

i still don't like anyone.  it's pointless.  totally and absolutely pointless.

i want to do something tonight.  hey, allison.. you up for anything?  it's been quite a while.. call my house.  i'm deaf and can't hear my cell phone.

soo, i'm gonna kinda wind down on xanga.  i'll still post.  just not as much.  so yeah.  i may actually totally quit in the near future, but as of now.. i'm just kinda backin away from it slowly.

sg.

happy happy 18th birthday, chris!  you're my heroooo.  <33

so this weekend is supposed to be sunny.  wooot.

paige, i called you at 5:55 am.  i'm sayin this just incase you don't remember.   cause all i could get out of you was "uhhhnn".  but you're still hott, so i forgive you.

lalalala.. party tonight.. then kandace's.  call my cellular if you feel the need.   if you don't have the number.. find it from someone else.  but i don't get service at chris's house.  so that could be a problem.  whatever, leave a voicemail and i'll call you back.

i'm eatin scrambled eggs.  yummm.

merry friday to all, and to all a good weekend.  woot.

sg.

 we spend all our lives trying to be perfect.  then, right when we're about  to die, we realize it's our imperfections that made living life worth it. 

and it's worth everything. 

 i love you jessica.  <33

today was okay.  not as great as the rest of the week, but hey, you can't expect too much.

 i don't like anyone.  not jamie, not cody, not chris.  nobody.  and it's a good feeling.  'cause i don't have to impress anyone.  i'm not sure if it'll be this way this time next week.  but as of right now, i have no guy on my mind.  and right now is all that matters.

tomorrow's friday.  march 4th.  christopher's 18th birthday.  incase i don't get to post tomorrow, happy birthday chris.  you're a doll.

so we're going to his party tomorrow.  kandace wants to ride up there with adam and kristian, but i'm not sure if i'm going to.  whatever, i'll figure it out later.

and somewhere in the midst of everything, you realize that the past, present, and future all run together.  not so perfectly, but nothing's ever perfect.  if this world was a perfect one, things would be so boring.  imperfections spice things up.  and then there's the fact that if everyone was perfect, we'd probably look like the people on those viagra commercials.  a little too happy, if you ask me.

so tonight i think i'm going with cajun to some basketball thing.  that should be fun.  finally go somewhere other than my house and school.. which has been the only two places i've been lately, considering this past weekend i was home sick.

so this time i'm for real moving on from jamie.  or so i say.  he's such a bitch now, i don't even want to talk to him.  but, who knows?  next week i could be saying something totally different.  i'll keep you posted.  not that you care or anything, but then again.. you are reading my xanga.

rob is finally admitting to the public that we are, as a matter of fact, married.  ha, 10 seconds ago i was saying i don't like anyone, so don't get me wrong.  me and rob do not like eachother.  but we get bored in class and make up stuff.  like.. rob's pregnant.  yeah, he'll be showing soon.  if it's a girl, we shall name her lavonda.  hott.

speaking of real pregnancies, david said i could possibly be the godmother to their kid.  i doubt it'll happen, but heck, it's nice to feel important.

and you'll never know how much you mean to me. <333

sg.

//edit//

my puppies are cuter than yours.  ask mary lee. she came over and saw 'em.  they're cute like woah. 

so i'm not going to that basketball thing.  cajun had to go to her dad's work to type a paper.  such fun.  i'm definitely jealous.

i have to find some good song lyrics for english tomorrow.  any suggestions?

i did all my science homework.  can i get a woot?  that's like.. the first time i've done 100% of it.  i usually only do half of it, if any.  i was so proud of myself.

i wish my mom would hurry up and get home.  wal*mart is calling my name. "sara..saraaa" oh yes.  it wants me.

all of my posts are completely pointless.  i'm thinking about quitting.  like, for serious.

sg.

//edit//

went to walmart.  saw allison. totally made my night.

things that have made me feel special tonight:

robbie telling lies:
EskimoBob182: wow
hankyXXpanky: what?
EskimoBob182: your hot

sanders being curious:
colonelreid5889: You single?

the fact that paige has also noticed the distance between us lately:
hankyXXpanky: why don't we ever talk anymore?
XoX paige oX: i dont know but its really depressing

evan being a kiss-up:
Poethudidntknoit: hey baby

kristian being a sweetheart:
overdosedtodeath: hey wonderful

<33

postal service is my loverrr, yo.

i got to drive hooome.  somewhat.  i got to drive once we got halfway home.  away from other cars.  my mom is such a wimp.

i got my dad sick.  he looks so pathetic when he has the flu.  but i was dead sexyyy.  ha, kidding.  i've never looked dead sexy a day in my life.

lalala.  i'm going to eat supper and take a shower.

comment, you whore... please?  =D

sg.

it's happening to three people i really care about.  i love yall.  muah.

chris asked me out last night.  once again, i said no.  i just don't want a boyfriend right now. 

kristian stole a picture of me & kandace from my wallet and put it in his.  such a thief.

thank you for your sandwich, megaroni.  i loved it almost as much as i love you.

so, mr. pound is in that teacher-student basketball game thing friday.  and we were talking about it in english, and i simply asked "you can run?"  and that "hurt" his feelings.  then i asked if he was going to wear shorts.  if he does, i will be sick.  blehh.

so there's this girl in one of my classes.  and she's a pathological liar.  and it's really annoying, cause she can't keep up with all the lies.  therefore, she always gets caught in a lie- and then she just lies to get out of lying.  yeah.  annoying.

i've got a fat cat.  she waddles when she walks.  could be cause she's pregnant.  yeah, that might have something to do with it.

i think i'm moving.

i got to print off my pictures for journalism.  blehh.

i also need to go run some errands.  i need more face wash, shampoo, conditioner, mechanical pencils, concealer, mascara, and eyeshadow.  thank God for wal*mart.

will wilson would make a horrible girl.  i put his hair up in 12 pony tails today, and he practically cried when he took them out.  wimp.

let's go dancing.

sg.

//edit//

you just ruined my awesome mood.  i'm beginning to hate you.  i should have long ago, but now there's no hope for either of us.  but it's not like you're reading this cause you're talking to "one of your hoes", as you put it.  whatever.  you're not the same person that you once were.  and i can't do anything about it now.

and i'm so worried for you.  hell, you're not worried so someone has to be.  i don't think you and her realize what y'all have done.  this isn't going to just affect y'all.  you're not even 16 yet, and you're already spending the rest of your life like this.  it's not a joke.  you're dealing with alot of futures that don't belong to you, and you don't seem to care.  i should totally disown you as a friend now.  but i can't.  i won't.  cause you need as many friends as you can get right now.  i'm not letting you go through this alone.  but you've got to realize exactly what you've gotten yourself into.  dropping out of school and working full time isn't going to cut it.  you need to take some serious action.  and fast.

what do you do when your best guy friend gets his girlfriend pregnant and you can't help either of them out?

what do you do when the guy that once made you soo happy starts to hate you?  and you can no longer call "just to talk"?  and when you do talk, he ditches you cause one of his hoes is on call waiting. 

thank you kristian.  your advice really did help me.

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